He continues to guide me:
My big brother, the one who will always influence me throughout my life....

As I am approaching a new stage of my life, marriage,
I feel Keith's presence more than ever. Keith has been watching over me through all my life changes such as graduating college, starting a new job, buying a condo, but now he is more strongly than ever with me through my preparation for marriage.

This recognition of Keith in my life is apparent, but differs based on which situation I am in at the time. I know he has, and will continue to help my wedding planning to be smooth (he has always taught me to not sweat the small stuff). At one point, while talking to our wedding DJ, I noticed an expression from him that instantly calmed me and reminded me of Keith; I knew I was making the right decision. At my religious preparation class, I noticed the joyous, easygoing and energetic personality of the priest, and this energy around the priest confirmed Keith's presence. I know these points will not make a lot of sense to whomever is reading this, but to me something about these specific times made me realize how Keith is right in front of me. I know that he is encouraging me to stay calm and to not worry so much about these decisions; the right decision will just come to me.

I notice a lot of Keith in my fiancé, Mark. Mark's ease of putting light into any tough situation reminds me of how Keith would talk to me. Mark also teaches me not to take life so seriously and I swear Keith is passing this information on to Mark so that someday I will learn! Keith is definitely guiding Mark on how to help me grow!

I know that my wedding will be one that Keith will enjoy. I say that he "will" enjoy it because without a doubt he will be there with me, dancing with the rest of the family, and smiling from ear to ear. This wedding will be one that Keith will be proud of.... classy yet comfortable, large yet not overwhelming... and most importantly... combining our family in friends in one place to share in our joining together as husband and wife.

I miss you Keith, but I am so happy that you are present in my life in so many ways. I can feel you around me, and I know you will always be with me through whatever journey life leads me (or the life you help in guiding me).

Keith's little Sister, Carrie
March 2005